Some new, some old.

T`was a tiring weekend. Moved to a new house. Things suddenly seem to brighten up. Things seem to change for good or even better. A lot of things which were on my mind seem to have been accomplished, but a lot newer thoughts arise, newer targets, fresh goals and ambitions. Guess this is what they call 'Living'.

Well to add to the 'new' list .. last week have been working on the new operating system which Microsoft plans to release early next year, Yea you'veguessed it right .. its Windows Vista. To describe the first experience with it .. Its Awesome, Amazing and Adorable. Cool new security and flexibility features keep ur excitement up. Its like Google or rather Microsoft Live of an operating system. Yup the search features are just way too good. Well will talk about it more sometime later.

Feels good with almost everything new around you, a new house, new workplace, new colleagues, new goals, new responsibilities, and also new beautiful neighbours..lol. Its a new way of life, but some things are best old... like friends, memories, principles..hmm.., grandma and so on. I just pray that these never change !!!

Its your decision !

Whew !!! I thought Blogger would delete my blog as there wasnt any activity for such a long time. Finally the next post is here.. Well its been quite a long time and a lot has happened.

Trips to turmoils, happiness to helplessness, commitments to disappointments, decisions to indecisiveness.

Talking of decisions, I came across this wonderful piece of poetry that inspired me a lot. Its then I "Decided" that I would have to share this with you AND also "decided" that I gotto start blogging again, so what better way than this ??? ....


Each day there is a DECISION,
That each of us has to make.
For EACH of us needs to decide for ourselves,
Whether to GIVE or to take.
Whether to LOVE or to reject,
Whether to bring PEACE or strife,
Thats the DAILY DECISION,
That affects the REST of our LIFE.

Fanaa and me !!

Tere dil mein meri saanson ko panaah miljaye
Tere ishq mein meri jaan fanaa hojaye.


Thats the caption of the recently released bollywood movie starring Aamir Khan and gorgeous lookin KAJOL!. Well im not here to blog the review of Fanaa, but, there is something else related I have to blog about.
Harish called me up all the way from Pune, while watching the same movie, only to ask me if I have written the scrip of Fanaa, and he wasnt joking as usual, he was quite serious.!!!.
Since the release date of Fanaa, Ive been getting calls from friends, relatives, and people who know me asking weird questions like "Hey, did u write the dialogues for Fanaa?" or "Are you Fanaa's script writer?" or "Mush.. Fanaa reminded me so much of you" or "Heyy, u know Aamir belts instant shayari's to impress kajol in Fanaa just like how you do it to, haha!!"
Well alright, some people thought that aamir's charachter resembles me. Nothing to be surprised of. After all you can relate to a charachter of any movie at some point of your life, and its normal. But with so many people askinme the same thing leaves me wondering whats it all about.
Guess I really gotta watch that movie now.
But before I do lemme say something to all those ppl who were reminded of me while watching Fanaa..

Poochthe hai log ki kya main Fanaa ka lekhak hoon,
Kyunki Fanaa mein Aamir meri terah shayari kartha hai.
Main Fanaa ka lekhak nahi tho kya hua,
Aakhir Aamir unhe yaad tho meri hi dilatha hai.

Lonely

The lonely one offers his hand too quickly to whomever he encounters.

Not a typical day today. I dont feel good. No reasons, just don feel like talking to anyone. Trying to find solace in staying aloof and alone and at the same time feeling too lonely. Ive been feeling this way since quite some time, may be a few weeks or even a month. Guess couldnt take it anymore, so trying to express myself here and am bad at that too.

Though I had been on a family tour to Wayanad and soon after a bike trip to yelagiri with friends, there did linger a feeling of loneliness all through. I tried my best and did succeed supressing it, but today I could not hold it any longer and it showed. All who have seen this change in me today have asked "what happened?" and I havent answered anything. Im sure, after reading this you will ask me the same, but I dont think ill be able to answer, coz I dont have the answer to it.

Mabbe im going through a self-destructive phase. Been quite aggressive. Mabbe Im just taking too much of pressures. Mabbe I just want to break free of all responsibilities. Mabbe life is too ironical with me. Mabbe im just waiting for big hug from someone. Mabbe im just lying to myself. Mabbe its only self pity. May be.

Monotony

I feel monotony and death to be the same - Charlotte Bronte

After long I decide to write a bit,
To break free from this routine shit.
I think hard to make this interesting,
To my dismay, I find not, a single thing.
Surprised, I wonder, whats wrong with me?
I shrug to say, how boring at times can I be.
Days come and go, like waves on a shore,
With nothing new thats not happened before.
Life drags on as time flies by,
No wonder all times I feel blue.
Longing for a change, helpless I sigh,
How much more of this deja vu?
Tomorrow will be no surprise, you see,
Ive done it a million times, its monotony.