repentance

"Every soul will taste of death. And ye will be paid on the Day of Resurrection only that which ye have fairly earned. Whoso is removed from the Fire and is made to enter paradise, he indeed is triumphant. The life of this world is but comfort of illusion"(Glorious Quran 3:185)

Older as I get, another year does pass by,
Another year closer to facing the Judgement of the most High!
Looking back, at the days that were mine, I see
What Ive done to those years, what has happened to me.

I need to account for all the mistakes Ive made,
In moments of joy and sorrow, I haven't prayed.
Sinned and lied and cheated, with no fears,
Forgive me, Oh The Most Merciful, I now shed tears.

An accused anguishes anticipating the sentence, he might be convicted,
He cant afford even a smile, until he's sure hes acquitted.
A few good deeds, a lot bad ones, I stand with an unclean slate,
Anticipating His judgement, how can I celebrate?

There's still time to better in life's biggest test,
But its only until Im laid to rest.
Hope to make it a deserving next year,
Gratitude for HIS Bounties - and for my sins a many repentful tear.

To submit my will to You, Oh my Creator, I strive,
Show me the straight path with every step of life.
The path of those whom Thou Hast favoured, thier way,
Not of those who earn thine anger nor of those who go astray.

Wake up, before it gets too dark,
Plan ahead - It wasnt raining when Noah built the ark.

weasel words

"Words are but the vague shadows of the volumes we mean. Little audible links, they are, chaining together great inaudible feelings and purposes. ~Theodore Dreiser, 1900"

No, im not gonna claim 'Im back' or justify why I haven't posted, write 2-3 posts and redo the disappearance act all over again.

Yes, I have a lot to say as have been through a lot of changes, realizations which I need to explain.

Maybe I'll write it out here to explicate the peripheral occurrences and realizations in my life, lately or I'll just let it be.

Even if I do write, I'm not sure how many of you still visit my blog, or im just left with the fact that the word "you" a few words back refers to only "me" !

Though I have not expressed myself here for long now, does it mean my words have stopped flowing, or just sitting on the shelf?

But I will still continue to write, for I love to express through words, my feelings, myself!

Instead I have diverted my inking towards online debates, communities, or online publishing on a news forum.

As my expressions now are stressed more on inter-faith dialogue, current affairs, historical facts or political decorum.

Still I have the urge to return to my own space, my blog, and pen my feelings as usual through my trade-mark poetry,

For that is my forte, you may see a strong flavor of politics and history or a mix of everything like a potpourri.

Because I know for sure, there are some of you who will visit, if not today, maybe in near future, to check if I'm(read- my blog) living or dead!

Hope the word "you" mentioned in the immediate above sentence refers to others than just me, instead!